I've been trying to gather my thoughts for this for a long time.
Those who know me know I'm blunt and to the point, but I also don't want to hurt anyone's feelings. I got to the point a number of months ago where I just wasn't happy. I'm not an unhappy person in general, I'm pretty happy go lucky, so this was a frustrating place for me to be.
If you know anything about reporting you probably know it's a 24/7 job. The hours are long, the pay stinks, and even when you're "off work" you're never really off because you have to keep in touch with what's going on. It wasn't the long hours or being away from all my family that brought me to that place. I genuinely love my job and find it incredibly fulfilling.
Rather, while I was all makeup and smiles on camera off camera my personal life was a mess. There's no other way to put it. I was in a relationship (not sure you could even call it a relationship at that point) that instead of adding happiness, it sucked the life out of me. I was also doing less and less for myself while putting more and more into my job as an escape. There's nothing wrong with wanting to succeed at work, but it's also not worth losing your sense of self over.
I finally took a step back and made some changes. I got rid of the relationships that were pulling me down and starting reinvesting my time (the little time I'm not working) in ways that made me happy. I started doing yoga again, hanging out with friends more, going out to grab drinks or food, working out with friends (something I normally don't do), and just living more.
I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders and I'm happier than I have been in a long time. My friends have noticed how much happier I am and have been commenting on it.
I didn't want to hurt feelings of anyone, but you have to do what's best for you. For me it was getting out of relationships that dragged me down. Now do I expect every relationship friends or otherwise to be perfect? Absolutly not. There will be disagreements, but there's a difference between disagreeing and tearing another person down. All of my friends and I offer constructive criticism to one another, but we're never mean about it. We're also the first to tell one another what an amazing job they did and tell one another how beautiful we look. Those are the kind of relationships I want in my life. I know those girls have my back no matter what and if I needed them they'd come in a hurry.
It's ok to grow and change, in fact it's only natural. I'm not the person I was a year ago or even six months ago and I'm totally ok with that. Had I not gone through those rocky months I wouldn't be where I am now, which is much happier and genuinely living, not just surviving.
Change is necessary and it's part of life. Don't feel like you can't change because you absolutely can. It might be painful, messy, and throw you in situations you never thought you'd find yourself in but that's how you grow. I've grown so much personally and professionally in the past few months and I'm pretty happy with the person I am. Of course I'm still growing and changing, but that's the fun of life. I'll never settle with being just ok and neither should you.
Happy Thursday! This week has felt long because I've been waiting for today. I've got some fun plans tonight so I'm pretty pumped about that, plus the weather is GORGEOUS! Winter felt so long so it's amazing to be able to spend nights outside soaking up the sunshine. Anyway let's jump into this weeks thinking out loud!
1. I cannot believe it's been FIVE years since I brought Cora home. She was only six months old when we adopted her from a local shelter. She's been a handful (that's putting it lightly), but I wouldn't change anything because she's given us so much love and laughter. Shelter dogs are the best dogs, I will never be convinced otherwise.
2. Evidently we're skipping spring this year and heading straight into summer. We went from the mid 40's to the mid to upper 80's. I'm not complaining because all the flowers are blooming, the sun feels amazing, and the world seems more alive. Plus the mornings are finally warm enough to run outside.
3. Speaking of running outside look at this beautiful view😍I love sunrise and sunset, but running while the sun rises will forever be my favorite. While it's not quite the same as running at sunrise in Hawaii it's still pretty dang beautiful.
4. Do you ever have those days when you're just DEAD TIRED. That was me on Saturday at work. I was running on 2 hours of sleep, which is my own fault for staying up late, but I also couldn't sleep once I got to bed. I had to sit through four hours of graduation at a local university for work and it was torture. About the only thing that made it worthwhile was our videographer/one of my best friends graduated so I got to see him walk across the stage. Overall I felt I didn't look too shabby for running on so little sleep. A little (or a lot of) makeup does wonders😂
5. Sunday I reported on the local half and full marathon. It was an incredibly long day (I had to be in at 5am), but it was pretty fun because it ended on the 50 yard line at Nebraska's football stadium. I've been on the field several times before, but it always strikes me because when you look up and around you it's massive! I can't imagine playing surrounded by so many people🙆
6. We had CPR training at the station yesterday and EVERYONE posted a meme from The Office😂Any other office fans out there?🙋I think the instructor got a little annoyed with us because we could not take things seriously and were cracking up the entire time. The important thing is we did learn CPR (which I had certified previously) and then we learned how to use a defibrillator which I didn't know how to do. Both are so important to know because you never know when someone near you is going to need it.
7. I'm just going to leave it at that because the quote is so true. It's not an easy thing to do but some of the best lessons come from stepping outside what's comfortable.
Have a great Thursday and a terrific weekend🎉🎉🎉
What is one way you've stepped out of your comfort zone recently?
What is your favorite time of day and why?
Happy Thursday! This week has felt like such a long one, but I've also been running low on sleep so that might be why. Regardless I'm happy it's my weekend. I plan on catching up on some sleep and laundry and doing some cooking. Thrilling weekend I know😂Adulting isn't always fun, but I do appreciate naps more than when I was younger. Anyway let's jump into this weeks thinking out loud!
1. The wind here has been INSANE🙆try standing and doing a live shot with 50-60 mile per hour wind gusts. My hair was all over the place and just insane. Of course I didn't have a pony tail holder on me or even a rubber band so I had to roll with it. I came in the next morning to an email from a viewer who felt the need to inform me my hair was messed up during my live shot...no duh fella.
2. First and only time in my life (so far) I've gotten a dust storm warning. My videographer and I were out chasing these crazy dust storms along the interstate when all our phones started going off. It sounded like an amber alert, but it was for a dust storm. Whenever we'd get out of the car to get video we would be pushed back by the wind because it was so strong. Going through a dust storm is probably one of the crazier things I've experienced.
3. Every May this is the best meme on the internet. On our morning show we even showed some of the music video from NSYNC's It's Gonna Be Me. The news director and older viewers had no clue what was happening, but the female news reporters were fan girling. Plus NSYNC got a star on the Hollywood Walk of Fame so that was pretty cool. Seeing this meme all over my social media feeds never fails to make me laugh.
4. I'm still working on my yoga. I haven't had much time to practice this week with work being crazy busy, however I do plan on indulging in some yoga during my weekend. It's such a good way to relax and I love feeling that I'm getting stronger. I've also found it's a good mental workout too because you have to focus and letting everything else fall away is so relaxing.
5. Cora is still a conehead and the dirty looks continue. My parents have been snapping pictures and sending them to me. Cora's leg is healing, but if the cone is taken off she will go right back to picking at it and then it's back to being in the cone. It's better to let it totally heal than having it partially heal and being injured again. If only she would learn her lesson, but the silly pup won't listen.
6. This quote just summarizes where I'm at right now. I'm working on a post about it, but for the first time in awhile I'm totally content with where I'm at. It's taken a lot of work and some not so easy conversations, yet here I am. Nothing beats the feeling of being totally content with where you're at. Once I get all my thoughts out I'll share it.
Have a great Thursday and a terrific weekend🎉🎉🎉
What is one thing you're thankful for today?
If you could have one superpower what would it be and why?
